6 Months- #BellLetsTalk
6 whole months. Half a year. How did we get here already?! 6 months with my little rainbow baby.
We have tried some solids. Pumpkin, cheese, and bananas seem to be the favourites so far.
Anderson is still relatively traumatized by rolling over. He loves to laugh at the dog...who loves to whine back. Watching the water glass fill up from the fridge spout is the most fascinating thing. His favourite song is “You Are My Sunshine”.
To be honest, I had written a different blog to go with his 6 month picture. But today is #BellLetsTalk Day and it seems like a good idea to be open about my struggles.
I’ve noticed my anxiety has skyrocketed since having Anderson. Sometimes I cry for no reason (often it’s because I’m too overwhelmed). My mind tends to set off in a downward spiral. If Anderson cries during an appointment, I think I should just give up...I can’t work anymore...but I need to have some sort of an income...why aren’t there magical ways to make money? I think to myself he wouldn’t be screaming like this if I weren’t working—and it’s all my fault...and then come the tears. I get hot, sweaty, and shaky. Then it passes and I’m okay. And guess what—my baby would still be crying even if I wasn’t working.
My biggest lesson learned since becoming a mom is that it’s OKAY NOT TO BE OKAY. Talk to someone and find your support tribe.
If you’re struggling, reach out.